Father never wanted me here
Saturday, July 5th, 2008
So, it turns out that father never wanted me back home.
While this might sound bad, it really isn’t; let me back up a bit.
I am still happy and as much as he tries, I am still not loosing my cool with father.
As I write this I am actually waiting for the “West Edmonton Mall” Apple store to open in… 8 hours and 13 minutes, actually, not just open, but the grand opening. I have just enough to get an ipod Shuffle (1gig), true I will not have much left to see me through until payday, but I will be fine, and the payday story I will get around to soon.
I actually was not that exited, however I wanted to experience an opening like this; you know at other openings there are people in line, days in advance. By the way West Edmonton Mall is the biggest mall in the world (take that mall of America), so I was expecting a really fun time.
So far there only about 6 people in line, disappointing, but still cool, and if you go to my talkingtoghosts site, I will try to have some video up this weekend.
Wow, did I get off topic!
Anyhoo, father was asking why I declared bankruptcy (99). Now he was there when I was going through it, but he was mourning the loss of his wife, so I am sure that there is much that time is forgotten in the “cruel mist of grief” (cool choice of words huh).
I explained about being tricked into coming here, and as you know that is the reason for much of my bitterness.
Father just said “I never wanted you here”.
Now, this might seem cruel, but, we don’t like each other and we are stuck (yes by fear as much as anything, but I am cool with that).
I reached down and as I touched my dog I realized something, and told father. I said that while I would have preferred to have remained up north, I would not want to give up a moment with my Scruffy.
Father doesn’t want me here, I don’t want to be here, but now everything is pretty much okay, as long as I have my dreams my experiments,,, and a puppy to love.
Sometimes without knowing it, and even in a pile of crap, happiness finds us, like Scruffy found me.
Be happy, be good to others, and always remember to be good to your selfs.
Glenn